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Diary of a Desperate Demon |
Catie Larkham
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Location: uk
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| Posted on 08-08-2009 19:53 |
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Well this is my life reduced to a few words....ok so let’s make a start stating who I am in case I forget and need reminded someday.
My name is Catie.... I’m 19 soon to be 20 year old girl. SWF...Living if that’s what you would call it... struggling to get by in Nor. Starting to sounds like a singles add I’ll be holding interviews for the position of my stalker all day tomorrow.
Oh dear how did I end up here... on the off-chance anyone does end up reading this, a warning...I am a mixture of emotions and meanings, and not a very good writer either...
Long story short I am a demon who still has some trace of human values but I fear they are slowly fading. I belong to a family in nor... belong does not sound right.... the Chaos Marines, My father is the leader I used to stand beside him in battle... I have seen many come and go mostly go friends become enemies at less than a breaths speed. I walk alone and today that’s where I am again walking alone through the streets of Rem watching the couples kiss and hug blah hate that only because I am jealous Cenk and Perla they are sweet really but what is wrong with me.
There is this boy I Like I don’t know if he knows I am using telepathy to let him know but don’t think it is working yet. Will try again...... tomorrow. |
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Bullly
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| Posted on 09-08-2009 02:03 |
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*sniffs the air smiling evily at a scent he picks up*
Self Deceit = Self Defeat |
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Catie Larkham
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| Posted on 11-08-2009 09:16 |
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Perhaps a bad start to the week... my family was having one of those meet and greets ..I hate those spent the time wishing the ground would open and just swallow me...I left early when no one was looking.
I gathered courage and joined them the next day on a trip to Mega I don't often leave Rem the safety in familar surrounding comforts me some what...I lost sight of my family then a woman appeared and dragged me off I did not even try to fight ..As I lay wounded on the ground a thought occured to me I could die tonight...
I wish this week would end...
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RE: Diary of a Desperate Demon |
Catie Larkham
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| Posted on 11-08-2009 10:53 |
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I got up early and made my way the usual route I take to the main square in Rem ... I said my hellos and sat for a while as I so often do. I did not understand the danger I had put myself in...He is a demon after all. I cannot remember for the most part what happened and what I can remember I don’t want to talk about....Instead I have decided to get drunk. |
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Catie Larkham
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| Posted on 13-08-2009 07:03 |
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I had not been out of the house in two days just lay about in old jeans...drinking and feeling sorry for myself, then out of the blue the phone rings it startled me ..Breaking the silence no one ever calls for me it was this guy I had seen a few days ago...He had looked up my number I thought that was sweet he had taken time but still what would he want me for....he asked if I want to go out and well thinking it would do me good I said yes.
Scrubbed my face and still feeling sick it is the drink I drink too much I know.... made my way to Sin’s Eye I used to go there a lot it has changed still smells the same I sat at a table and he arrived..it was nice to talk to someone... he is a demon also and I questioned him about his honour to others he said he will respect those who respect him...don’t know I was never one for racial purity and after being raped by one of my own...now I said it...It makes it me angry I had cried those days so many tears none where left to fall ...I thought I could blocked it out I was going to get on with my life.
Take a breath and smile for ...
The show must go on no one must know It would bring great dishonour to my family and demon kind for I am weak ...the resulting chaos is only in my mind...
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Catie Larkham
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| Posted on 16-08-2009 16:55 |
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Friday: Is this real I find myself asking or am I in a fairytale.....I have just spent an hour making small talk with Damian...he is just so...lovely.... the words fail me. I long for him to hold me close and tell me it will all be ok in the end....I feel drunk without the perks of having been drinking.
Saturday: Bored nothing to do everyone else having fun ...flicked through Panorama and decided to make Inspiration board to help me get in touch with my demon side...Partly because when I was snooping around the dresser I found a big jar of Pink glitter..So I have now got a pink glittery demon poster... "Do what Thou Wilt shall be the Whole of The Law for the Greater Glory of Demonkind"
*Sighs* I sat by the phone for ages gave in and phoned him..... he is up to something probably found someone else.....maybe he thought we were just friends...If it does not work out I might look up that Abdullah one he looks ok not sure about Vampires 84% was good.
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Catie Larkham
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| Posted on 07-02-2010 20:09 |
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* Much time had past in this little ones life unsure of the path infront she decided to make one last entry......lifting her pen scrawed these words ...The End *
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Catie Larkham
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| Posted on 07-02-2010 20:28 |
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[0:57] Catie Larkham snaps closed her diary and places it in her bag....stand up from the sofa stretching her arms she looks around the home of the marines in retribution
[0:59] Catie Larkham she walks to the bathroom ... she steady herself holding on to the sink staring at her face in the mirror
[1:05] Catie Larkham turns the tap letting the cold water flow...lifting a wash cloth plunges it in to the water ......she wipes it across her eyes trying to wash away more than water alone can...lifting her head she takes a last look in the mirror nods her head... inhales a deep breath
[1:07] Catie Larkham opens the cabinet find a wrapped blade her fingers run the edges....she grasps it tight and puts in her pocket......exhales with a sigh and leaves the bathroom.
She does not make a noise as her light-footed steps graze the stone floor ...pushing open the mighty wooden door...feeling the biting winter air nip at her...
[1:14] Catie Larkham set on her path passes the vacant ground where the rejects had housed her when she first came to the lands...now destroyed by the recent invasions
[1:16] Catie Larkham walking through the ghost town of Reverence ......only her thoughts of what she must do...the reasons why buzzing round her head
[1:19] Catie Larkham stands at the border of Remembrance watching the infected attack the few that remain to fight.....she knows she is of no use here a hindrance to the family...
[1:22] Catie Larkham she hurries along the streets...as more Infernal’s appear....watching them as they destroys the city for a brief moment then carries on in her rush to complete her journey
[1:22] Zombie Monster shouts: A hostile Creature Appears!
[1:23] Catie Larkham skirting around the roads she jumps in to the water...
[1:28] Catie Larkham reaching the trees behind the hospital she stops and catches her breath.....lowers herself to the ground resting her head on its trunk....her ears ring with the distance echoing guns shots...she closes her eyes.....breathing in the stale smell of remembrance locking it into her memory......
[1:42] Catie Larkham relaxes back looking through the branches of the tree as the city sky ........the sky seems to sparkle as the leaves move in the breeze....
[1:46] Catie Larkham listens to the footsteps running on the gantry above her ....the noise slowly disappears in to the distance...the gun shots fading out ....her hand finds the blade in the pocket ....she removes its paper sheath ...the metal glinting into her eyes her head light...she scratches the blade along the vein on her arm...a trail of blood trickles out releasing her to the water below
[1:50] Catie Larkham weakly passes the blade between her hands and slashes at her wrist
[1:51] Catie Larkham yawns as her head falls back ...blinking her eyes to focus a little longer between the swaying branches as the night draws in...... fading to darkness
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Mikron
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| Posted on 07-02-2010 22:01 |
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((so Catie has comitted suicide?))
"Fear leads to Anger, Anger leads to Hate, Hate leads to Suffering..." -Yoda
"Let the hatred flow!" -The Emperor
"Give me one firm spot on which to stand, and i shall move the earth!" -Archimedes |
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Catie Larkham
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| Posted on 08-02-2010 19:51 |
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(( Yes Mik she did don't cry. Not sure if I return to this point where I left nor. I think it would make more sence to rather than try to carry on from where she is now I might like to reroll and would be intrested in rping this to a human or mythic anyone intrested in rping with me IM me in world or I might just rot in Rem until someone finds the body ))
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